Bash
Yeah this time i didn't have any idea for a post title.
Random ramblings
Well i am bored, pretty bored. I have nothing to do, i could be writing the three videos i am making, but i hate writing. I could be trying to make a game but i am too stupid for that. I could be drawing but that would be disingenuous traced slop. I could be playing games but i don't want to, and no i am not going to say "vIdEo gAmEs aReN'T FuN AnYmOrE" because i am not a fool.
I purely am bored. I remember a time where i had so much fun doing the most random of things making the game that shall not be named due to reasons, or making that Half life video. But i am purely bored now, Now i could go and try to have some fucking large reason why this is but the simple answer and unpolitical one is that it's just aging. I notice this with a lot of people, they lose their whimsy because age gives you this nihilistic view of the world.
Like for example i remember a student in school who told me "cookiebot can you stop treating everything so childishly. Become more serious" That guy was wrong by the way, i am pretty childish but i still treat serious stuff seriously. People just don't like that i am not depressed 24/7. There is a difference between being a manchild who never treats anything seriously and being a guy with whimsy in life.
I forgot what i was rambling about, but uhhh i have gotten a job offer now. Yeah i will actually contribute something to society not like those pompous youtube cunts who act like youtubing is a job. It isn't dumb ass, you don't have insurance, you don't have a fixed pay, you don't help out society, accept that all you are is random splatters that bring entertainment to some.
I will work in IT and can just get paid, just to waste it on transformers action figures or artwork commissions, or waste it on travelling.
FNAD 3
You know what, I think, I think i miss my FNAD 3.
There was so much effort put into it so much joy in the team that i just all threw away because i knew that the game that should not be mentioned is a failure to humanity and is the worst thing to happen on the internet. It is such slop, AI generated game. There was never any quality from my side, I was the George Lucas who got all of the credit instead of the cast members who did all of the innovation. Yes i did just compare myself to George Lucas i am that much of a cunt. But it is true. But oh god people hate the fact that it is cancelled because, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHY they seem to be so invested into nothingness, i could make a game in the franchise where it's only a picture of a toilet and they would think it's good. I just wish people would all collectively agree to start harassing me and the game because that is all that it deserves. Obviously not the team but me and the game, oh how i hope that happens with MONDE CANIN, the issue is i have limits. I have sometimes thought of putting edgelord stuff in it, No not what you are imaging what do you think of me? Maybe deleting the entire save file and game from your computer but that is too hard for my stupid brain. There are more ideas i have but i have to converse with people what they think. But they would probably shut down all ideas. Maybe add copyrighted material into the game like the entirety of the Room in the game, that would be really funny if you die and you have to watch the entire movie and wait for it to finish. Yeah i might do that.
I miss the game somedays and i never fully cancelled the game, the page is still uncanceled. Who knows maybe it might return but without me in it. I am too horrible of a game developer to make it, i have had ideas on who to pass the series along to but i have a fear they would make it something it's not. Try to emulate the first two games and just be full on stupid. That is why i am Monde Canin, so that i can say "listen here is the game, fuck you. Never EVER mention the franchise again and stop treating it kindly. You will never see me again so stop trying to trick people into playing this game." It won't be a swan song it will be a slop game like those ones you see on the app store.
Music
Been listening to Go away by the Weezer, pretty good.
bye