Rambles #01
its been 2 months since i decided to do what i feel is best, well not exactly 2 months but it's close to that. And i don't know why but i'm still thinking about what the artistic decision was. Was it good was it bad, I should have an answer to that but i don't which is odd. The reason why i'm writing this blog post is because i got bored of editing and i just feel tired. I got a job that's good and yeah i like it i just began it a week ago but somehow that is boring to me also, which confuses me i like working i like doing stuff instead of doing nothing yet somehow i don't like working. Confusing, but this confusion lead me to think about something, do i miss making games? I mean i don't think so but at the same time i do? It's this weird feeling where it's in this middle ground. I think it's just my mind not wanting to move on but somehow i feel making games was fun even though i was a failure, it's odd it truly is odd. Like i never coded i never became a real game developer and yet i miss being called that. Odd is the best way to describe it, People think i'm embarrassed by the dog franchise, but i'm not i just don't want to associate with a game similar to dormitabis. They think i am emberassed that i made cringey stuff but that's not the issue the issue is the disgusting nature of the franchise. Like i joke about my emberassing Gacha life animation videos i made, that is not the issue. I make fun of those fortnite lets plays i did, some people know what i'm talking about. But i see the dog franchise as different, it could cause me to lose my job. It's a threating pest to my life and i don't want it to be here. And yet i don't want to give up on the franchise somehow, i still feel as if i need to do something but i don't know what. I can't do monde canin now that the endings been spoiled, but i have to do something. I have to work i have to work and do something, that's all i like doing working, and yet i somehow don't like doing my job? I sound insane probably but i ramble like this normally. Like this is so confusing to me, i enjoy working i hate vacations and rest, and yet at my job i just want to rest? What the fuck is this backwards logic it doesn't make sense to me someone has to explain it to me. I just need to do something instead of nothing.